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I know a lot of you are religious, and I get it. I used to be too. I grew up going to a Catholic school, went to church, all that. Things changed though. Richard Dawkins opened my mind to a different way of thinking. Science has opened it as well.

I read, almost daily, of a child or person suffering from one type of illness or other. Babies born with congenial heart defects who endure surgeries, hospitals and sometimes don't make it. It baffles me when people say things like "oh, it's Gods' will" or similar things. Gods will is to allow an innocent baby to suffer? Wow.

Today I read a comment by a mother who's little boy needed a heart transplant. He was put on the list one day and the next day he got a heart. The mother commented "our god is so merciful". Merciful? Someone DIED so that baby could have a heart. That wasn't god, that was just the way life goes. A god who chose that one life was worth more than another? No thank you. I was speechless when I read that.

To each his own, I know. I don't and will never understand some people.

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Date: 2012-10-11 04:59 am (UTC)
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Oh my goodness, so much this.

I really struggled with the 'god's will' issue during my infertility and miscarriages. I walked right up to that mystery too, and nearly lost faith because I wanted so badly to believe that if I did xyz, the outcome would change to what I wanted it to be. Eventually, I realized that that line of thinking is essentially prosperity gospel and it is one of the greatest lies ever spread in the name of religion. I haven't railed about it much lately (certainly not in my personal journal, but I have in communities) but it still frustrates me to no end that so many people believe that if they pray hard enough or do x amount of volunteering or get baptized the right way that life will magically work out super-happy-fun-times. It took a great leap of faith for me to get to the point you got to - where you realize that life is just chaos, and we see a small part of it, and shit happens. Really, horribly awful stuff happens all the time. And really awfully beautiful stuff happens all the time, too.

But I think you put it best when you said God makes no sense to me. But I still believe. I'm right there with you. I don't get why bad stuff happens, and I don't think I ever will. I'm still kind of pissed about my miscarriages. And now, I'm mad about my layoff! :) But I think I've come to terms with the idea that shit just happens, life is a mystery, and God is there, behind it, somewhere, and I don't know what He's doing, or why, but it is what it is, and I'm going to just have to deal with that, and lean on Him like I would a friend, rather than leaning on him like I would a genie. But in the end, I really would like some serious explanations, or perhaps a view of the grand scheme. Because there is a lot of stuff that just sucks. This was the only song I ever ran across that really spoke to me about that stuff, when I was hurting so much:

Anyway- it pretty much says it better than I do :)


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